Minecraft - Pixlemon - Fun

Some older streaming clips of a bunch of us on a Minecraft Modded server for Pixlemon. Hope you enjoy the laughs! Stay Connected and updated by following the links below:
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Minecraft - Random Phish Time

This is a small video of clips from old streams of Phish singing randomly. Enjoy the oddness. Stay Connected and updated by following the links below:
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Draw My Life - JetRavenBlack - The good, the bad, the ugly

Please Fell Free To Ask Questions In The Comments! I know I am late to the party for this one but I had started this project back in January 2015, due to situations out of my control I could not make the video. So I held onto the script and then lost it... and re-found it recently so here I am. WARNING: Trigger Topics.... Physical Abuse, Divorce, Sexual Abuse, Cutting, Mental Abuse, Verbal Abuse, Miscarriage I truly am thankful for all my Ravers, long time followers and even those I haven't met yet. I have a hard time with day to day life at times and struggle often. Meeting and interacting with all of you has shown me that there are still good people out there, despite all the wrong I am surrounded with. Stay Connected and updated by following the links below: Twitter ~ YouTube ~ Instagram ~ Twitch ~ Facebook ~ Steam National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.... "No matter what problems you are dealing with, we want to help you find a reason to keep living. By calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) you’ll be connected to a skilled, trained counselor at a crisis center in your area, anytime 24/7." RAINN: Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network www.rainn.org RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network) is the nation's largest anti-sexual violence organization and was named one of "America's 100 Best Charities" by Worth magazine. RAINN created and operates the National Sexual Assault Hotline (800.656.HOPE and online.rainn.org) in partnership with more than 1,100 local sexual assault service providers across the country and operates the DoD Safe Helpline for the Department of Defense. In 2015, the Online Hotline expanded to offer services in Spanish at rainn.org/es. RAINN also carries out programs to prevent sexual violence, help victims and ensure that rapists are brought to justice. National Sexual Assault Hotline - 800 656 4673

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Meet Hope, RaisingHopeForKitties , a little kitten that got a bad start on life. She's so cute and was so tiny when we first found her. She got separated from her litter for 3 whole days and was also the runt. It was a miracle that she survived. I found her clinging to life near the steps to my home with her eyes sealed shut and covered in fleas. I have had her for about a month now and she has to be a minimum of 5 lbs. to have a surgery to fix her eye.

Hope needs a eye surgery to prevent further damage to herself and in order to live a healthy life. We hope to raise enough money to get her the care she needs before finding her a forever home.

I have set up a YouCaring account for Hope and her surgery, I will get more specific cost and her surgery date tomorrow. There is 100% no obligation to donate/gift. I do not want anyone to feel bad because they cannot donate/gift, any support is appreciated.

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HALO - BETA CODE - DESTINY

I figured that I would start posting some real blogs on here as well as what has been going on with the contests and the channel over time. I thought it would be a good way for anyone out there to get to know me a little better, as I would like to share my life with you as you guys are really there for me when I need you to be. So some of the things you may read may be things you don't want to know, or things you may not agree with but it is me and I want to be truthful to you all. I would like to start a side channel off of YouTube where people can ask questions and I can answer them for another way for all of you to get to know me. and where I may not be able to go into lengthy details on there I can always return back to here and talk more on a topic. Some things I will keep private in my life but as time goes on depending on how people react to this post I may write more.

So with all of that being said lets talk a little about today. I had doctors appointments today, two of them and while one of them I am not ready to talk about openly one I am fine with talking about even though it was bad news... well possible something that will turn into bad news. I had to go back to my "Female Doctor", OBGYN, for the results of a biopsy that was done earlier in the month. Rewinding a little bit I was all ready on edge with this visit and sick to my stomach, the "BIG C" is common in my family. Last night I had even had a dream about going in and talking to the doctor and her telling me that the results came back and that it was cancer. So when she comes in and she doesn't have a smile on her face I get a slight bit worried, and then when you hear the dreaded "Okay we need to talk." from anyone you know it is bad news. Immediately I begin crying and she is handing me a box of tissues and I am freaking out. My mind starts racing because my mother was also at a doctors appointment in a different place because it was a check up from when she had cancer early on in life. The doctor calms me down and finally says "It's not cancer, yet." It may have been only a few moments but it felt like a lifetime for her to talk again, and then only took seconds for my brain to click that she said "yet". So I can't remember exactly what she said it was called but it had the words "atypia hyperplasia" in it. I have to take more pills and I will have to have a surgery done in the near future. My only thing I have ever really wanted in life may never become possible, have a child. What ever this is if it does become cancer I will not be able to have children, and even if it doesn't I have to get permission basically from a specialist if I can even try after the surgery I have one and they get more information from a better sample I guess.

Even if everything comes back okay I will never be able to have a child "the old fashion way" I will have to have IVF done to even have a chance. In the long run a chance is a chance but my insurance doesn't cover IVF and I don't think I would ever be able to come up with the kind of money that it takes to cover that. It can run from $5,000 - $10,000 I have read, I just saw the closest fertility doctor has Discounted IVF like it is a sale or something right now... IVF Cycle for the low cost of

$6,200; $3,100 down, $258.33/month for 12 months (interest free).

Then there is more money I guess... it says...

*Please Note the Following regarding our Discounted IVF: Included: IV Conscious Sedation, Oocyte Retrieval, Intracytoplasmic Sperm Injection (ICSI), Assisted Hatching, Embryo Transfer, and Cryopreservation of Surplus Embryos. Storage of frozen embryos and frozen embryo transfers for a period of one year following the fresh IVF cycle. Excluded: Medications and Monitoring. Monitoring is $750 each cycle if no insurance coverage available. Monitoring begins at baseline and continue until retrieval of eggs or possible cancellation of cycle.

I don't think I will ever be able to have a baby...