Monday, October 7, 2013

I feel like I am dieing. literally.
I have so much pain in my body, physical and emotional.
I just feel like my brain is telling my body to shut down.
One day at a time.
I have lost the will to live.
There is no purpose in life...

I keep getting all these sharp pains inside my body all over...
I keep getting loud ringing noises that last for so long.
Sharp pain in my head too.

I can't get rid of the feeling of being sick, vomiting.
I keep feeling my body bring itself right to where it is going to let loose, and I stop it.

Is it really worth it in the end?
Knowing that your loved ones could easily move on, be happy again.
Have a chance...

Sometimes I try to think of how things would be if I wasn't here.
If one day I was just gone.